My last Month

I cant believe this is my last month of high school. I mean at first time went really slow but now i cant seem to slow it down...WHY WONT IT SLOW DOWN!! I think im going to miss high school, i dont know, im really confused about college right now because i cant afford the college that i want to go to and i really dont want to take a year off. I dont know what i wanna do anymore. My whole focus has been on prom and graduation. And there both so close. Sighs* i just want to enjoy my life day by day instead of stressing about what my come ahead for myself. I just dont want to live with my mom anymore. I know that for sure, im definatly going to check out my old telemarketing job tomorrow. I reallllllyyyyy need a job. Im in debt with my own self. Plus its really quick money. Weelll in other news though im ready for prom...im just a lil sketchy about after prom, my bstfriend really wants to get a hotel but shes with her ex and i dont understand why she wants to get a hotel so bad, i hope she doesnt regret anything. I mean im down for whatever really, im just iunno, i really wanna go clubin but then again shes not 18 so the clubs i want to go to she cant get in. Anyyy way...so umm yea i have another blog now so its just for my poetry or free style verses what ever rhymes off the top of my head really. Man i hope this makes sense because i dont feel like reading over it or spell checking it. Anywho im going to go work on my autobiography for class tomorrow...sadly.