Its Been A While

Its been a very long March and Im very happy its april now . To give u a complete update of whats been going on with me for the whole month of March I'll just it has to do with me and dating on going out. I've started to explore my options again with the whole dating thing. It kinda started on a bad note because my x and i were starting to hook back up but sadly he did something stupid...well i did something stupid too...well were not together. Then weeks later I met this guy thats birthday is the day b4 mine. How cute...but what a terrible mix. Were clashing big time and its like he doesnt see it. Hes very clingy and right about now im about to go back to my original plan of being celibate until college and then start dating. I dont know...i have other options...like this other guy that im talking to...but i really just want to be friends and maybe progress into something more...but im not looking for more so i can see us being friends for a long time . But as far as this other guy...were just going to call him Jay...yea i also think hes gay...so thats another reason why i just need to let him go. I have this uneasiness about him like hes hiding something and keeping secrets. I just dont feel comfortable around him...anymorree i should say because in the begining...(lol..yea the begining its always like)..i felt like we were perfect together. I think things moved wwaayy to fast. I just want to goooo...just go to college and start over. Im just not good with relationships i guess. My bestfriend always tells me that i just havent met my match yet. And all this "drama" is really starting to effect my progress in my plans that i had made b4 these guys came along...Ive gotten pretty lazy and ive been on the phone way to much. Thats why i say im glad its April...its time for me to get back on track and possibly go back to my old ways. Ive had my one month of fun lol. Any way thats basically whats been up and oh yea..my whole job search thing. I starting to give up on that too. Know body wants me...i dont have much work experience and all the jobs i look at are professional type jobs. Im close to caving in to the whole fast food world. Any way im wraping this up...hopefully ill start back to blogging on a more daily basis...ta ta for now.