Dont Freak

Its only been a week since my last post. So far i got my dress and my shoes and my purse YYAAAYY!!! The only problem is that we might not have a prom because there isnt alot of people buying tickets inwhich covers the price of the place that we're renting (hard rock cafe'). I mean if i dont go to prom i would be disapointed but im really just looking forward to graduating. Thats on the top of my list right now. Any who...so i havent found anything wrong with ndoe** yet*. I mean im not looking for things about him to bother me im just alittle suprise that ive gone this long and not found anything about him that i dont like or that has gotten on my nerves. I guess its just the fact that he always has a smile on my face. Thats where alot of guys fall short at. Its like there funny in the beinging but then once we take that big step to being"boyfriend and girlfriend" then things get all serious and touchy. Sometimes its just the fact that we jump in the "relationship" so fast that they dont get to know my serious like but funny personality and they get offended when i say a joke about them. Thats like part of the reason why alot of my relationships dont work. Guys dont understand that i just wanna have fun. Im young im not going anywhere so why tie me down. Its about being confident. I think guys should know or find out there place in my heart because aparently i give off the wrong signals at times...but anyway im getting way off topic. I really enjoyed my time with ndoe yesturday and today though. Especially yesturday because of the bus ride wwayy out to a shoping center, where i need to exchange my shoes and get a purse. And today when i was kickin it with him at his house....for the first time i didnt feel pressured to take off my clothes. It was really something that i can get use to. But anywayy like i was sayin I guess thats another thing that guys dont understand about me. I mean first off im not materialistic so buying me clothes and concert tickets is not going to make me the happiest girl. Its the little things like walking around the mall window shoping, or going out to a park or just chillin watchin a movie. Those are the things that make my time with that particular momment worth being there and remebering it. But anyway that was the best time ive had since i was with my ex jason. I think if the guys i went out with would just remeber my birthday and places i might be performing at then i wouldnt have a problem being in a relationship. Those are the tings that i figured that im actually judging guys with...just the amount of time they spend with me and how much they can make me laugh. Im not in need of attention 24/7. Just as long as time is spent then im coo. I kinda like the fact that the time i took off from guys and so called relationships, i was able to learn more about what i want in a guy. But yeaaaa i really enjoyed my self with ndoe**. SO in other none mushy news...yesturday was my big brother birthday so happy birthday big brother even though u dont read my blog atleast i hope he doesnt and even thought ur birthday was a few days ago happy birthday to u too kevin. Sooooo ima wrap this up and hopefully it'll go through instead of the last time when i had type all this stuff and it didnt even go through so ima just copy it so if it does do it again i can just paste and try to post it again.