Takes Cover Off PC*....ahhhh good ol blog

Wow, its been like forever. I've been doing so much. I just have two jobs now because the telemarking wasn't paying me enough. I've been looking at some prom dresses so i can see how much i need to save. I already have plans for my money...heres my list of things i want so far...A tomagotche (im just as shocked as you are...i cant believe they came back) pay my cellphone bill so i can talk talk talk talk, a tounge ring (maybe) this really special purse that i wanted (which motivated me to get a job) and...ummm...thats all. The rest is just going in my savings. I'm saving for, senior trip, prom, and ne up comming shocking things that might come up and i can go to my account for the extra cash. I got this letter today from National Honor Roll...i feel really special...so im going to show my guidence counsolar so they can put it in my profolio.Just to keep something to brag about. I've been actually feeling out some scholarship forms, one is for asthma and another one is just about me being me.

Well enough about school and things that i've been doing...lets talk about these people that im in forum with that just found out my age. Ok...Im seventeen get over it. I mean its like now they read my poetry with a different view. Especially this one erotic poem titled "busted". You should see the responses i got...just click here. Well im just alittle tired of everyone thinking im just so innocent and i dont think of things like that. Well umm im about to be 18 and yes i do look into politics, teen sexual behavior, and what there doing to improve our education. I dont understand adults or mid tweenty's people. Ouuu i made a very graphic poem...oh well its my imagination...damn. Maybe Im just heated because when i was posting things about politics and women needing to stand up for them selves they responded to my poetry well but then they found out how old i am and i guess there started to question my skills and my knowledge about things. Yes i am a teen but not a regualar ordinary teen. I THINK!! and listen. Most of my conversations are with adults, i just attrack them, because i talk about things they wanna talk about and they get so caught up in the conversation that they forget how old i am and sometimes they dont know until were finish talking. Then they leave in shock that they just had a whole convo with a seventeen yr old. oouuuu a few months from being grown or legal i should say. Well as a teen i have choros and h.w. to study and a bath to take....so until now dont miss me too much....and oh yea heres some refreashing music...sorry i havent been posting much....

No Longer Jobless

Yep...its true...i have a job...well actually 3..*giggles*. One job is working at the browns stadium for home games, second is telemarketing, and third is going door to door to help the Special Olympics. Sighs*...i actually have training today at 6..but i have time to lounge. Well what have i been up to all week....lol..looking for a job of course and looking for scholarships. WELL now that im employed my blog can now be interesting because i can talk about all the people that i will run into or talk to..well i just wanted to catch everyone up on things...tty when i get home.

Im Just Thinkin

I hate it when im in deep thought....you know when u ask yourself about the what if's and could have beens. Its so much going on....my bestfriend hasnt been comming to school and my other friend wants to give up on everything....and my issue is love. I dont know why but i dont think that i'll ever be in love with ne one. I really dont wanna get hurt....i mean ive seen what love can do....and it really hurts when someone takes it away....all of my friends have been in love except me...sighs*....ive also thought about all the guys that i've been with...like not even in that way....just u know in a "relationship"...i dont even think i can be in a real one...i just want somebody to take me under there wing...not hurt me...and just love me just how i am....i think that would mean i would be married...
Ne way...ive managed to make myself sad about it...but...when im sad i write the most heartfilled poetry...as u can see below...but ima go..igot some h.w. to do....see i had to write in my blog when im not even finished with my h.w....well night for now....

Hey this is a new video; posted: 10:46
It really expresses how i feel and you know...well just listen or watch which ever u perfer...
Nappy Roots - Sick and Tired (no longer available)

Love A Many Splendid things and A Challenge To Me

****Just something that was on my mind...enjoy****

I've searched my soul to find what challenges me
I've drawn my conclusion....
Its Love.
Numerous boyfriends and countless dates
And i still pray and wait for fate to...
Guide me to love
Yes I've said the words and thought i had conquered the challenge
Of loving and being in love
And yes Ive heard the words
Mixed and mangled with
His hands between my thighs and my mind being in wander
"Is this what love is".
Then i took a second shot at love
I followed through with the I Love Yous
And became confused when he replaced his "I love you to" with
"I cant make it, or "I forgot" and "I'll make it up to you".
Then i figured this wasn't love either,
I tried again opening myself to begin love...
I screamed and shouted to the sky above
And with a feeling like this
I just knew it was love
Thought who needs the ring when
He's given his heart but that feel apart when
I had a new place
"Hey is that yo girl" "Nah man just a playmate"
But as he said "You will always have a special place in my heart"
Was he tellin the truth...
Its really no use to stress the thought
Because I...
Learned enough or better yet alot
See I...
Figured If my legs are apart my lover loves me
If his hands are where they wanna be, then he loves me
And if i don't ask for to much, like remembering special days
Then he finds time to love me
We'll looking back its funny
Cuz no one loves me more than me myself and the lord.
So yes loves a challenge that I'm building myself for
And when God thinks I'm ready
He'll bless me
But for now loves a challenge
I'm not looking for

I HAD....

The best time of my life last night. The dinner party was great. The food was different, and the people were like a breath of fresh air. It felt good to be around some new people.
I even had a good day at school. I joined the news paper committee again, prom committee, started the Step/dance team again, and signed up for after school study for the SAT's every Tuesday. Im bout to be bizzyy.....and yes im still looking for a job.....and im on a strike against heels for this week....from my experience of yesterday im bout to rockin some tennis shoes all day everyday....i wore heels to school, and mind you i walk to school, and thats a 30 min walk, then i kicked those off and put on my 4inchers to go with this beautiful blk n white dress for the dinner party. Never AGAIN!!...i can just imagine what kinda damage i did to my knees and lowerback. Man ima have some serious problems when i get older. But ne who...there isnt much else i can say....Yesterday was in describable...well i could tell u the set up;)....well lets see there were different booths with a restaurant at each....then they gave you samples or a taste of what they have to offer at there restaurant or what there most popular dishes were. I loaded myself up with chicken curry spring rolls that were in a very sweet sauce and buffalo ribs....ohh goodness those ribs were so tender....and i had an allergic to seafood again...my mom was angry with me because i had known from my past experiece with fresh seafood. But there were 25 different restaurants there and i just enjoyed about 4 of them....well its bed time.....and i gotta go potty...so i'll talk about this tomorrow.....nnniigggtttt

Go Browns Go Browns....

Yay...im so proud of the browns, they crushed the ravens 20 to there messily 3....lol...they didnt even get a touch down. And what was Deion doin on the field...i mean he didnt even tackle anyone let alone get his jersey dirty. newho...i went shopping yesterday...i only got some shoes and some accessories but i dont understand how i practically went to every store in the mall and only came out with shoes and a necklace for a cute dress that i hadnt worn yet...but...i will monday...ha ha..now what else didnt i blog from yesterday hmmm...oh if i see one more over weight person squeezed into somethin that showin there strechmarks im going to scream...i seen something that was just nasty...this lady had on this mini skirt and had some really bad celulite and a few rode maps...i mean stretch marks on her lets...and she was pushin a stroller...oh my goodness...i almost threw up my little $2.09 pretzel. hmmm what else is there...i know its some other stuff im forgetting to tell yall...oohhh...make sure u read the comments of my blog tittled "Didnt Miss Much"..yea an ass wrote something that he/she couldve kept to themselves...but im really not on it ne more...but hey its sunday...the browns won...and im going to a very special dinner with my winning team..life couldnt be better...and on that note..i had really good dinner too...but ima go...time for me to iron my clothes for my 2hr. school day *smiles*...i love being a senior...miss me much

Yawns*

Hey...well im to tired to blog tonight...i went shopping and u know that can wear a girl out...so i'll tell u about everything tomarrow...so while u wait enjoy Jaheim's video...this is a classic...nite nite luvs

Didnt Miss Much...

Today was short ass hell...i had two in a half classes...it was a half because my English teacher didnt show up today...we didnt even have a sub...so we sat in the class by our selves and chilled..what else...oh i had the lil test in my CI class...then did a lil drawin in art...yea...nothin really happened today...im just lookin forward to this sunday and monday...Sunday..because the Browns are playin against the Ravens...yea Deon old ass wanna go against our fast as rookies..he wont survive...ne way...then monday night...im goin to that Browns dinner...its a charity for somethin for hungry...iunno..i'll i know is that the browns are goin ta be there, its real elegant, and i have to shop for a real cute dress tomorrow...yea...spendin mo money...*giggles*...hmm what else...oh oh oh...now i got this project...wit this loud mouth...lazy ass girl..i dont think i can deal wit her shyt for two weeks..ima prolly have ta cut her loose mon. sighs*.ight let me go b4 i get all worked up...oh yea...and im movin the Ciara video prolly tonight...and puttin it on my Poetry Homepage...and i puttin a new song or video...still undecided but u'll see..ight nite nite



No video is available Jaheim - Put That Woman First

At Home....

Its been a gloomy rainy type day.....so i popped in a few movies...did a lil work on my pages....and of course studied for my test tomarrow *giggles* ight maybe not study but ima do it b4 i go ta bed. I did a lil studyin while i was in the tub though....*smiles*...ne way i enjoyed today...it was like a lil vacation....so tomarrow i have school and its friday...and on top of that i have what a hour or so in school....easy friday.....Oh me and my mom are going shoppin for a nice dress for me for the meet the browns dinner.....i cant wait....i kinda love going to fancy places....yawns*....i need ta cut this short....i do have school tomarrow...and i gotta study...nite nite.....

People Can Be So Selfish

You know...i invited my bestfriend to go see the premier of cellular (what a waste, but i'll tell u about that later)...now i asked my brother if he could drop my friend and i off at the theater and pick us up...he had no problem...Then today all of a sudden he wanted to know if my mom could pick me and my bstfr up...of course she said no...so then the problem escalated to him not wanting to make a second trip...as far as going to pick her up...he told me to ask her if she could get a ride or take the bus...okay first off in order to get to the theater you have to go towards her house and second she and i dont live but 5 or 8 mins the most from each other...so my bstfr figured she would just give her ticket to my brother since it was a problem for him to pick her up...sighs*...and when i told him that he could go he didnt complain once about how he had to work the next day or how tired he was..*shakes head*...i couldnt believe how selfish my own brother could be...ne other time i've had tickets to events during the work week and he had no problem taking my me and my bstf...could it be the fact that he just wanted to go in the first place...my thing is why didnt he just ask to go...you know...*yawns*...ne way

About that movie...Cellular...yea umm can we say AD-very-this-MENT...thats basically what it was...theres even an article about how it was a promotional movie for Nokia...just click on the title of this blog...it tells u all about...i mean the movie was a good C+...mmm B- the most...it was good enough to watch...but not buy...its a good maintain...Its just the fact that they made the movie so obvious that it was for Nokia about Nokia and based on Nokia...lol....the credits was going through the screen of the phone...and the phone was positioned just right so u can see the name of the phone and the style...*rolls eyes*...oh brother...ne way i dont have school tomorrow as u know so im just going to channel surf until i get sleepy...oh and i slept so damn good last night..no tosin and turnin....well i hope every one has had a good day...i know i did...it was fair...im signin off...miss me much

Still Coughin

Yea...im still a lil sick but of course i went to school ne way. I hate missin stuff...especially since i knew we were havin a test on friday. But i have weds. and thursday off so thats more sleep time....Somethin i didnt do last night...Idunno what was wrong with me...i kept tossin and turnin and wakin up and coughin....then at times i couldnt breath because of my asthma.*sighs* I tried to take a nap and barely suceeded...the phone woke me up....*yawns*...Oh and now my house is painted all girlie...it use to be a light lavander type color and white...now....get this....its pink and white...lol...yea...my mom really went over board wit that one...well i think the good news today is that i can taste my food...like for some reason when u have a cold u cant smell or taste...its weird...or is it just me....Oh speaking of food and dinner...my mom won tickets to eat with the browns...its a dinner party and she said she might take me...yay me...well ima go try ta catch a nap...im not really tired just restless....and oh yea...my favorite video site is down...so no new videos maybe some music though...iunno i'll think about it...

I Had Fun *cough* *cough* Yesturday

Yea....its nothin like hangin out with family. I had so much fun yesterday. And even though i had a really bad cold and couldnt taste ne of the food i was eating i still had a good time...the dj was wack though.. i told my cousin...which was the host...not to pay him....he didnt even have ne bass in his music....but the entertainment was still raw....because of course my cousins and there friends got down wit they lil dance steps....Yea...i even seen an old friend i grew up with.....she wasnt really a friend though...but i was kinda shocked to see her position knowing that she's only 17 and has a 3 yr old son and a 9month old son. Everytime i looked at her i just felt so bad. Im so glad i was taught to use protection and better yet just keep my legs closed.*scratches back*....yea.....but umm.....i been tryin ta taste this wonderful food from the party yesterday and from today....but no luck....i still feel ttttttteeeeeerrrrrriiiibbbbbbblllllllleeeeee *cough* *cough*...well im bout to go soak and drink some homemade remedies....I dont think i have a new video to put up yet but i'll look for just in case...otha than that...night...god bless...and oh yea...i might be goin back to church again...yay me....giggles*...i unno...i just need to get some word in my system some positive-ness to keep my head up and keep my spirts high through my senior year and through ne other troubles i might run into.....yea i know im suppose to pray but i just...well i just need to go....but umm i'll tell yall about it if i go...and i'll go look for a video if theres ne good ones out there.....sighs*....i feel like crap

*Sneezes*

Damn....Damn...Damn....Im sick on Labor day weekend...but you know....nothings goin ta stop my but from partin...ima just have to stuff my pockets and my purse with tissue...lol...nah im kiddin...or am i :wink:...but ne way...i dont know what to do wit myself...:sighs:...i wish my buddy reese could come take care of me:(....well bye people im goin ta go look terrible to match my mood...hope everyone else is havin a good weekend :sinfle:


Oh i was gon change the video but theres no video out there that says i feel like shyt...so i'll keep Ciara on to keep up my spirt.

I LOVE FRIDAY'S

Every since school started its been feelin like its been takin forever to get to the weekend...Well nothin much has happen today...I breezed through my three easy A classes and even napped in one of em.I've just been doin alot of thinkin about the people that I know and how much they really dont know about ME. I guess im just either real secretive or just private with my life. Ne way...if u cant tell by the music well im in a pretty good mood...More like a dancin mood...I need ta go to a party or a club or somethin...i need ta twerk it, pop it, perculate it, do somethin...I just need ta move show these females how ta really dance....Ne way so thats what i shall be doin this sunday....yea..so ima leave u wit my girl Ciara showin off her moves...I give the girl props...she can dance.



Sorry I moved the video...gotta check out my webpage to see it

I thought i seen it all.....

Oh lawd...lawd....lawd.....i thought i seen it all...but today...tops the chart of the funniest things i seen, heard, and experienced. *chuckles*....ight....today i went to this place to see about a job...well just to get a job application, so i went into this office and there was a lady that was in the middle of her interview, well i found out i they didnt except walk-ins so i went back out side to catch the bus back home.....while waiting with my friend, the lady came out and said she got the job.....Now when she oppened her mouth...i didnt see a tooth in site....lmao...she was toothless....oh lord i hope i dont go ta hell fa talkin about this lady....but ne way the lady had me and my friend rollin.....she was tellin us how she got fired from her last job which was Burger King..She looks like shes in her mid 30s almost 40's and so she said she got fired on her off day....i was crackin up so hard....i was cryin and everything....She said her boss told her she got fired from eating a fry....lmao.....so the lady....known as Ms. Williams said "How i get fired from chewing a fry when i aint got no teeth".....Oh lawd...me and my friend had to put our books down because we were laughin so hard...i couldnt believe how hard i was laughin....Today was a good day.....even though i didnt accomplish my goal of getting an apt from that place that pays 8.65 an hr... i still got a laugh out of it....It must've been a reason for me to go all the way there after all......That always makes me think about how everything was taken place...how i had oringinally planned to go there by myself but instead my bstf* (bestfriend) came to school and i went to the bank with her which took like forever then she wanted to go get somethin to eat...and all that time was just passin by so my friend and i can meet up with Ms. Williams and laugh our buts off.....lol....yea...i even have a new video for today's blog....yea...no more One In A Million..that was what i would call.....a small in counter....i havent decided which video yet...but im about to look now...



22mins later....Ight...Im not a rap fan all like that...but im feelin a lil hype...so heres my favorite cut...well really my favorite only because my baby Luda is in there *winks* Oh and if ya didnt know...I-20 is from Cleveland babay.....yea!!!.....bounces in chair alil*


***Hey..sorry...but i changed the video again....as u can see..***